25.12.19

November

Entah dari kapan aku ketagihan menangis
Seperti rasanya semua bisa selesai meskipun sesungguhnya tidak
Aku menangis lagi
Menangisi kehilangan
Menangisi rasa rindu dan kekosongan

Aku rindu kamu, kamu butuh ruang
Keduanya tidak pernah cocok untuk bernaung di bawah satu atap
Bila kukatakan rindu
Tidak akan mengubah apapun

Mungkin rasa ini hanya aku yang punya
Meskipun aku tidak pernah ingin kita usai

16.12.19

Escape

I've been trying to define what's actually perfect moniker to call you
Honeybee?
Heartthrob?
Home?

Life's so unfair for me, so does to you. Then we can call it fair enough.
You know under the moonlight, everything was beaming
There's new define color when I spent a whole night to the morning with you
You were silly guy with a big fire sign energy
You're warm as the sun when I felt its cold and lonely
You poured a color to my blue
Everything was mundane and nobody would expect it so

I like you, so much I can't hide
Whenever I saw smile on your face, it brought the light insight of me
What do we afraid now?
If 90% of your time should've been yours, I will be the rest 10% to fill in

You were the first guy who took me to field and watching the game
Your embrace always been the warmest, I crave to it everyday
Preparing your lunch is the spirit I need to wake up every morning
even I forgot there's mountain to climb
And when you called me pretty
You have no idea that my heart burst out, haven't sweetheart?

I've been starting to realize that the small and simple feeling grows
Please forget what I have in the past, cause I have to move on
And you're my favorite guy today

16.3.19

Bitter/Strange

I don't know it just feel no longer the same
the way you kiss me
I wish there's still me, somewhere else in your thoughts
because if its no longer me, and you're no longer mine
my wings would break into pieces
i know exactly the feeling being undesirable

baby i'm calling you
please don't go
i don't wanna get my ass back to the road
the winter inside of you
rule me out
feelings fade and people change
but
i won't let this happen twice